Two Mounths

Tomarrow will be two mounths since she has been gone, some of my family will be going to visit her. Most likely I won't go till sat or sun with my mom & godmother & the rest of the family. My sister said that she will be coming over with my little nephew & neice so that should be nice because I haven't seen them in a while. My nina (godmother if you didn't know what that meant, if anyone is reading this) said that every 19th will be hard for her because that's the day she passed & I can say I feel the same. It seems like every time I say I am not going to about bad things that happened to me I end up writing nothing but what I said I wouldn't. So after this I will do my best to write about the things that kind of make me happy at this time & also about my work & love for makeup & fasion. P.S. I will try to put up a pic of me soon on my profile :}

Feels The Same

It feels the same as in my heart is beating slow & hard. Not the same as it was a few months ago when everything was fine. when my family washappy & had reasons to be happy, now everything is lost. It littraly feels like the back bone to my family is gone, it has been pulled, no yancked away from us. I have had family & friends passed before but no so close to me as my grandma. When people say the pain & heart eack will go away they just don't know, because the people that do know still have the pain. I know no matter how much time passes that part of my heart will never heal & put back the way it was before.