Had A Good Weekend

Well we (my family) were going to have a little BBQ on the weekend but we ended up not doing. But my nephew & niece ended up spending the night with us & that was fun. I did my nieces nails, hair & did her makeup, she is only 5 years old but boy oh boy she act so much older. So I tell dose want to go to the baby salon hahaha my sister sometimes takes to go do her nails on the weekend she don't come to our house. Then me & my nephew made a little fort in the living room & watched movie till we were falling asleep. It's always so much fun when they come over, the next day I read them some books & they read some to me too. Well hopefully they can come over again this weekend.

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Her Birthday

Well It Was A Very Nice Birthday My Grandmother Had, Most Of My Family Went With The Exception Of A Few Kids Beacuse Most Of Them Started School That Day. We All Sat Down Chatted About The Good Times We Had With Her & Had A Little Trio Band Play The Songs She Liked & Reminded Us Of Her As Well. Then We Wrote Messages On Ballons & Let Them Go, My Ballon Had No Blank Spacese On It. After A Few Hours We All Went To Dinner, It Was A Nice Day & I Don't Think That Any Thing Would Of Made That Day Any Better. I Kind Of Have The Feeling That We Are All Waiting For Thanksgiving & Christmas Because Those Are The Times We Spent With Her & No One Knows What To Really Do About It With Out Her. Only Time Will Tell.

Grandma's Birthday

Well its been awhile since I posted anything on here, life's been a little crazy these last past few weeks. Next Monday is my grandmas birthday & everyone is going to the cemetery to release balloons with little notes on them to her. I know that this Monday is going to be very hard for everyone. I see it in my mom's face that she is already taking it hard & it will only get harder. After we are done were planning on going to eat at some restaurant, which should be nice for everyone. It has been five months already but sometimes it feels like more & other days it feels like yesterday. I have to say I really don't want that day to come, I don't know how I am going to react with so much emotions going on. well all I Can do is wait till Monday & let things happen as it goes along. Ill post something after her birthday to let you know how things came out.

Two Mounths

Tomarrow will be two mounths since she has been gone, some of my family will be going to visit her. Most likely I won't go till sat or sun with my mom & godmother & the rest of the family. My sister said that she will be coming over with my little nephew & neice so that should be nice because I haven't seen them in a while. My nina (godmother if you didn't know what that meant, if anyone is reading this) said that every 19th will be hard for her because that's the day she passed & I can say I feel the same. It seems like every time I say I am not going to about bad things that happened to me I end up writing nothing but what I said I wouldn't. So after this I will do my best to write about the things that kind of make me happy at this time & also about my work & love for makeup & fasion. P.S. I will try to put up a pic of me soon on my profile :}

Feels The Same

It feels the same as in my heart is beating slow & hard. Not the same as it was a few months ago when everything was fine. when my family washappy & had reasons to be happy, now everything is lost. It littraly feels like the back bone to my family is gone, it has been pulled, no yancked away from us. I have had family & friends passed before but no so close to me as my grandma. When people say the pain & heart eack will go away they just don't know, because the people that do know still have the pain. I know no matter how much time passes that part of my heart will never heal & put back the way it was before.

A Heart Break Day :*{

Yesterday was my birthday, I turned 23 & it was the frist birthday with out my grandma :*{ My last post was on the 11th if I knew my grandma would be gone 8 days later I would of had made them the best last 8 days of her life. March 19, 2011 is the day my heart broke, the day where a whole in my heart appired & nothing will ever be able to fill it. I went to colloege to become an M.A., I got 100% on my C.P.R. class & got my card, so if any of my family & friends needed me I could help. My grandma heart stoped & I gave her C.P.R. but I was just too late :*{ I can still remember every single little detail of the day as if it just has happened. Somtimes I wish I couldn't because I replay it in my head & wonder what I did wrong & what I could of done better to keep her in this world. I can still see her heart beat go flat line every time they would stop to see if her heart would beat on it's own. My heart is hurting like it has never felt befor, my guilt gets to me everyday & no matter what I do it wont go away.