Feels The Same

It feels the same as in my heart is beating slow & hard. Not the same as it was a few months ago when everything was fine. when my family washappy & had reasons to be happy, now everything is lost. It littraly feels like the back bone to my family is gone, it has been pulled, no yancked away from us. I have had family & friends passed before but no so close to me as my grandma. When people say the pain & heart eack will go away they just don't know, because the people that do know still have the pain. I know no matter how much time passes that part of my heart will never heal & put back the way it was before.